Not Too Difficult
It was one of the best birthdays. We were staying with friends in Sacramento. I woke up, showered, got dressed and put on my make-up like I always do. I went downstairs and sat on Blake and Kellie's couch.
This trip had been good so far. But today was unstable, like every other day in that season. I was hopeful. But I was also reasonably aware of my situation. The cold hard reality shoved it's ugly self in my face often among my hopeful moments.
God had asked me to do something unthinkably hard. It had been about a month since He gave me direction to follow. I had set off to follow Him on this path He so graciously invited me to go on with Him. My days looked something like this: obedience, panic, hope, terrifying fear, then peace, obedience again, and so forth like steady waves all day. It was a roller coaster of the heavenly divine versus earthly weakness and instability.
Have you ever desired something but the end result seemed completely unattainable? Have you ever known the right thing to do, but felt too incompetent to actually walk in obedience and carry it out? Have you ever secretly set a goal but wanted it so badly that the fear of failure paralyzed you from dreaming? Have you ever felt like what God asks of you is just too plain hard? Just basic simple obedience seems too much to ask when circumstances seem impossible. Have you ever told yourself, "I've failed before, it only makes sense that I'll fail again."
Well I have.
I desprately needed for God's plan to work in my life. But by all reasonable and logical thinking, it was just too much to ask. God was waving this beautiful promise in front of me, but I had a history of failing. In a wave of hope, I went back upstairs, grabbed my Bible and smiled to myself. I had a few moments before we were scheduled to be anywhere. Maybe God had something to give me for my birthday.
He gave me something that would shift my perspective and change everything.
Deuteronomy 30:11-14: "For this commandment which I give you today is not too difficult for you, nor is it out of your reach. It is not in heaven that you should say, 'Who will go up to heaven for us to get it for us, and make us hear it that we may observe it? Nor is it beyond the sea that you should say, 'Who will cross the sea for us and get it for us and make us hear it, that we may observe it? But the word is very near you, in your mouth and in your heart, that you may observe it."
The promise He gave me seemed way beyond the sea, way past any semblance of reality I saw in my life during that season. The commandment He gave me seemed unattainable. Sometimes God's word in it's most basic truth seems the hardest to walk out.
But His commandments are not abstract. The commandments He gave me were not optional. Though sounding impossible, He was dead serious that I follow them. And look, He told me so on my 31st birthday. This commandment, this thing I am asking you to do is not too difficult. It's difficult. It's hard. But not too hard and not too difficult. It is within your reach.
As I look back at that season in my life, I smile. I had a simple promise from God that it would be hard, but not too hard. And you, even you, His commandments are very near to you. As close to you as in your heart.
You may observe them. You can.
After that morning I believed His commandments for my life were attainable so I set out to follow them. This journey with God has been one adventure after the next. Not once did He let me dive off the ledge where He was not there to catch me and place me somewhere new, closer to His promise for my life.
Step 1 is knowing God's commandments for your life. What is it He is asking you to do? Now, step 2: The choice. Will you choose obedience?
I chose this photo carefully for this very precious text. It was the first day of fall, boot weather! I stood on my front porch ready to start my day. It's the picture of a first step. If you have struggled with trusting God and walking in obedience, let me congratulate you on your first step.
It's not too far, across the sea, unattainable, or too difficult. God is near to those who follow Him into difficult-ness.
I can't wait to hear all about your adventure.